Today was by far the best date ever with you. Maybe it's because counting down to the hours we have left together makes each step I take with you all the more precious. A surprise foot massage, our "must order" soft shell crab for lunch, to walking the supermarket one last time before catching an uplifting movie. - end of first half of the day. If I died, that would be all I could ever ask for. You went all the way, gathering my friends from different communities to celebrate with me. I am so thankful to God for someone like you. My guardian angel. You made me see what true love is like, what sacrifice is through the cake you baked. You showed me what it means to go the extra mile, to walk in tandem with me. To put me first, to hold me like it will always last. I am overwhelmed by your love, and I truly wish that we didn't need to part, how can I after what you done for me today. To slip back into apparent "singlehood" . To tell others I'm in a relationship, but I'm not allowed to be by her side. How do I tell others, without telling them outright that "hey! This is peilin, my girlfriend". It's akin to the feeling of wanting to scream but no sound seems to come out. All I can do now Is to wait. To smile weakly at people and say I'm okay, when it's killing me inside.. I really hate to do this.. Every single time something good happens in my life, I get frightened, because I know something will surely be snatched away from me. This time round, it happens to be you. You were that "good" which happened to me, but now being torn apart from me. Sometimes all I ask from God is a break. Can I for once in my life have my cake and eat it as well. But I guess fate wouldn't have it that way. It's 2.30am now. Maybe I'm just tired.
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